Wandering Sage

Patience

2012-01-31T22:05:00.000-08:00

True, life indeed requires A LOT of patience. I would not be writing this blog now if I didn't have a problem having or getting it.

I am basically a very impulsive person and it has gotten me in far too many troubles. I just hope for the best!!!

Siem Reap Direct

2012-01-29T12:46:00.001-08:00

Cebu Pacific will be flying Manila to Siem Reap direct starting on April 19, 2012. Wow, so exciting!!!

After mga 3yrs cguro in negotiations, natuman r jd! Way to go CEB PAC, explore Angkor Wat, explore Cambodia!!! :)

I do hope the flight will be sustained so that it'd still be there when and if I'd need it. I keep the faith.

Happy Monday, everyone!!!

Return

2012-01-22T13:17:00.000-08:00

I just noticed that we're using for 2012 the same calendar we used in 2006. Wahhh, 2006 was not a good yr for me. Does this mean this yr won't be a good yr for me too? Wag nmn sana, I'll work on it!

Xin Nian Kuai Le!Gong Xi Fa Cai! Kung Hei Fat Choi!!!

HOME

2012-01-11T21:09:00.000-08:00

I now accept that Cambodia will be my 2nd home. Please bless me Lord. They say home is where the heart is... ;)

I remember what Ms Arlene Beguerras in WIS Siem Reap told me on 2 April 2008 when I came for the job interview. I told her of my SG story. She said 'where ur heart is, there ur treasure will be'. Wow, I'm gonna cry n jd Lord. Coz I love my experience in KH so much.

I just keep the faith!!!

Demanding

2012-01-08T13:44:00.000-08:00

Demanding daw ko maong di nya ko gusto. Cge, bahala ka sa buhay mo. I'll get on with my life. Jia you to us all!!!

New Year 2012

2012-01-08T13:41:00.000-08:00

I want to start this year right so as early as now, I'm trying to do things right in my life. Good luck to me!!!

I wanna get married this year so let's see if I'll be successful. I'll give it my best :)

3rd Batch

2012-01-08T13:32:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna have my 3rd batch of visitors soon. Wow, since November I've been receiving visitors. This is a preparation for what, Lord?

I would have had a visit from Nev in end January of last year. But he backed out of it. So now I want to start the new year right. If I have special visitors soon, I'd be really happy...

Happy New Year everyone!!!! :)

Busy

2011-12-11T05:58:00.001-08:00

I have been really busy these days. I've never been this busy in recent times. Hahay, life!

I teach 9 classes at school then I have to go home every weekend. This semester in particular is busy coz of the Christmas holidays in it and due to the fact that I went to Manila during my semestral break. I never felt any break, huhuhu!

Another thing is that I'm trying to write a proposal for a possible PhD in UU. Have been really busy the past 2wks I never got to revising some of it. Actually only a few corrections are needed but then, things have been really hectic at school --I was asked to join the CAS Faculty Choir this year. Practice mi till 8pm or sometimes even later.

Then my sister is coming home on the 14th pohon. I have to prepare the house coz 2 of our friends is coming over. Hay, when will I ever have time to breathe???

Good night, everyone!!!

Christmas 2011

2011-12-11T05:55:00.000-08:00

I've only had 3 Christmases outside the country --in NL in 2000 where I saw snow for the first time in my life, in SG in 2005 and in PP in 2009.

This Christmas was different from all the others indeed. Coz I got so busy in preparation for my visitors' coming, I got sick before Christmas. La koy nasimbahan sa Misa de Gallo. And then Christmas just came and went like that.

Till next Christmas. Good luck, Doki! :)

Refresher Course

2011-09-28T04:20:00.000-07:00

I am excited for the ISS Refresher Course due to take place at UP Diliman on 23 October to 4 November. Actually it has a sidetrip to Tagaytay for a few days so that's what I'm really excited about.

But as life would have it, I have MANY things to do first before I can go there. Himo pa ko grado and after that, pwede na lupad!

All the best to me!

Small World

2011-09-28T04:16:00.000-07:00

We know some or a few people in common coz it's a small world. But why are we not in touch??? I am not in touch with those guys anymore for my own reasons. Now what's gonna happen to me??? Good luck, Doki! :)

Ask

2011-09-21T17:38:00.001-07:00

I just got to thinking today... where does my heart belong? Does it belong here in Cebu City, Singapore, Phnom Penh... where????

Mao n ni gidangatan sa tawong paag2... God bless us all! :)

Oregon State

2011-09-12T03:01:00.000-07:00

After a thorough look at universities in Oregon, I found Applied Economics program in Oregon State. Wow. I plan to apply for next year pohon but I asked them if I still have to do the GRE. Lisud mn gud and mahal pud.

I'm gonna wait till the end of this month though for Prof Falter's decision, UniGe. I pray for the best. Asa lng gd ko ibutang sa Ginoo. God bless us!

Moping

2011-09-12T02:58:00.000-07:00

I realized last night that I have actually been moping all this time. And for what? Coz some guys didn't like me. I realized that I can't do anything abt it. If they don't like me then I just have to move on. Good luck to me!

Portland, OR

2011-07-15T17:58:00.001-07:00

He's from the area. But he said he was born in Missouri. He once said I wouldn't have met you if I didn't move here. Keep praying Doki, in time....

I saw how beautiful it is in the movie we watched at school, "Extraordinary Measures". But my problem is that I have never set foot in the US so I cannot totally relate....

Portland Rose Hospital etc. Maybe OR is the Rose State?

Made Up... Talking Again

2011-07-15T17:55:00.000-07:00

We've made up and now talking again....

This is really getting interesting. Good luck to us!!!

Face to Face

2011-07-13T17:41:00.000-07:00

Now I understand the importance of two people who are dating seeing each other everyday. Coz it's really very different if you're just talking on the computer and he's even so far away from you (15hrs is our time difference). He said we need to take a break. I agreed and told him to email me in a week or two if he still wants to talk to me. Good luck to us then....

Bye for Now?

2011-07-13T17:38:00.000-07:00

I pushed him on what he plans to do with his life. He got angry, he said I used force in order to meet my needs and reassurances. Well, it was all so frustrating so I said goodbye to him. Asked him to email me in a week or two if he still wants to talk to me.

God bless us all!!!

Stress

2011-07-04T19:00:00.000-07:00

Last week was very tough for me. I ended up giving up my tutor with the kids coz it was just so hard to do. Kapoy magcge'g dali2 pauli from USC. Nauwanan p jd ko last week that's why I have cough and cold. But it's getting better, it should be gone soon.

Stressful week sad for Steve. He said he gave up the security guard job so he has no money and no place anymore to live. Actually he found some temporary housing, thank God. Please help him to find a good job, Lord. Soon. And a job that he loves. I trust You to take care of things. Amen.

Trust

2011-06-24T19:11:00.000-07:00

I told him that I want to trust him. He called me on the YM then we continued to chat.

He said call him lng daw if ever there's something that comes up. Stop making excuses daw. Yah coz we're in 2 different locations, we are 15hrs apart.

Thanks a lot and more power to us. Maybe we can really make it work! God bless!!

Work

2011-06-24T19:04:00.000-07:00

It was his bday last Tuesday, same sila bday sa ako bro. And last Thursday he told me that he found a fulltime job. Wow, I'm really happy with all these developments. I'll just have to hang on then. Matter of time... "The Pursuit of Happyness"

He doesn't like to call it work daw but creating income. Cge...

Hope

2011-06-17T18:57:00.000-07:00

There's hope for you yet, Heide. Keep the faith. Forget everything in the past and just move on with all hope for the future.

Things will work out just fine. Sabi nga ni Madon 'commit everything to Him'. I love you Madon, God bless us always!!!!

Challenge

2011-06-15T01:28:00.000-07:00

Seems the challenge this sem is that there are few teaching loads at CDU. I am only handling 6classes so only 18units. Fortunately I still have 1subject at USC so maka-add n lng pud sa income. Plus my tutor sa silingan...

I want to buy my own computer. Let's see if my budget will do. Good luck Doki! :)

Talk

2011-06-13T18:13:00.001-07:00

We've talked abt how we're going to deal with my proposed plan to study. I'm happy it worked out that way.

Good luck to us. I keep the faith!

Back to School

2011-06-08T01:05:00.000-07:00

We are now back to school after a 2 month break. So far 6 pa ako class but naay possibility nga mahimo 7 coz isplit mn daw ang class/es nga more than 50 na ang enrolment.

At the same time I'm also working on my proposed research for a possible PhD in UU. Right now medyo nidaku na ang scope coz my contact wants me to look at the land market in Philippines man, not just real estate. Wah, good luck to me indeed!!!

I keep the faith lng jud. Always! :)

NBA

2011-06-06T02:19:00.000-07:00

The last time I remember that I got hooked to NBA was back in 1990s pa, with Chicago Bulls, LA Lakers and all. Kadugay na diay ato!

The Miami Heat lost yesterday to Dallas Mavericks. It's okay, there will still be a better time in future. Go Heat, go Coach Spo, Dwyane Wade, LeBron James, Chris Bosh, the whole gang --you have my full support!!!

Haha

2011-06-05T17:15:00.000-07:00

I said goodbye to him but he didn't accept it. Guess I'll just do what I had planned to do, and that is talk to someone else. Who knows di ba???

Back to school na mi ron. May we have another fruitful semester. God bless us all!

I pray everything will be okay in Bohol. I trust everything to the Lord.

The Past 2 Weeks

2011-05-25T18:34:00.001-07:00

I have been busy since May 15th p.m. Didto ko Tagbilaran to buy Anchor DMC #822 para sa cross-stitch that my sister was working on. I was in Tagbi for only 30mins then uli na. The next day I went to Cawayanan to look for a helper there. Then pag Wednesday I went to Tagbi na pud pacargo sa cross-stitch. It was a nice trip coz I was able to see the hustle and bustle of Tagbilaran Airport. Busy na pud didto oi. Pagka Thursday I sent my aunt to the hospital coz la pa man maayo iya ubo. Monday morning na sya nigawas. Then Tuesday didto na pud mi Tagbi to get an X-ray for my aunt. Then yesterday nibalik mi sa bukid aron ifinalize ang uban nila oldies sa balay. Medyo settled na and she said she'll come to the house ig June 6th.

Whew! It has really been a LONG forthnight. And through it all, I have remained in touch with Steve. Busy pud sya lipat to a cheaper apartment. Talk n lng mi kung kalugar pohon.

I pray for the best!!!!

BIG STEP

2011-04-30T20:21:00.000-07:00

Yes it is a big step to be talking to this Jewish-American. We haven't even met and it's not likely that he'll come here soon. He doesn't want to be rushed into marriage daw. Sure, I understand.

I also don't know anything about the US. I mean, not on a personal level anyway. I know and I read about it but I haven't been there. It's scary to think that I might move there IF EVER we get married.

But still, we have talked about A LOT of things alrdy so if it really doesn't work out then I guess I'd have a friend in him.

Good luck to us indeed! :)

2011-04-29T23:53:00.001-07:00

He'd need to ask me more questions pa daw before he'd ever board a plane and come to Philippines. Too jaded din sya. Hahay, good luck to us!

Call

2011-04-03T21:57:00.000-07:00

I got a call today from a new prospect. He's from Portland, Oregon, 42y.o. It was nice to talk to him. Hope to talk to him on Skype next time. God bless us!

Kidding

2011-03-30T19:55:00.000-07:00

Who am I kidding, I miss PP like crazy!!!

Hope madayon jud ako trip pohon. God bless us all!!!

British

2011-03-06T20:55:00.000-08:00

Why am I meeting so many Brits??? It all started with meeting Neal Evans, our trainor at CWF. Then I met Nick at WIS. Then it was just other Brits after. Bakit ba???

I just find it ironic considering that I have a connection to Holland. But then, I didn't find a Dutch husband so maybe I am not for them.

Good luck to us!!

Not Him

2011-03-02T16:21:00.000-08:00

I have said goodbye to the new guy I met recently. He said he was coming to Asia. I said I'm still busy with school. And I may not want to meet him coz I just met him. He said I'm not serious after all so he lost interest.

I had doubts about him right from the start. Coz his picture in WAYN was different from his pic in YM and Facebook. Friends also told me to be careful, coz he could just be out to fool some girls.

Good luck n lng to me in this. I keep the faith!

Crazy

2011-03-02T02:58:00.000-08:00

I went crazy over the weekend. I said goodbye to Nick. He was just incredulous about the whole thing. He said, "are u going to jump from a tall building or something? why are u saying goodbye? that is a bit odd, heide! stop being silly!"... Essentially he just asked me to confide in him whatever it was that was troubling me. I thanked him for being a really nice friend. I can't call him a snob anymore! :)

New

2011-02-25T18:50:00.001-08:00

I'm meeting someone new. I keep the faith!! :)

Valentine's 2011

2011-02-14T03:03:00.003-08:00

It's just another Valentine's Day in the land... Hahay!!

Keep the faith, Doki, darating ka din dun! :)

June 2011

2011-02-08T17:11:00.001-08:00

I may have to be in Bohol in June, tiwason ra ni nako ang semester sa CDU. Coz manarbaho na lagi daw si Bantil so I have to stay with the olds in Tubigon. I feel sad in the same way that I felt sad when I left PP last October.

Pero I'll think n lng this way: As long as I could find a good job there, I can pay for Palm Heights. And as long as naay internet and mall didto, malingaw ra lagi ko.

I think of my PhD applctn. Unsaon n mn lng if madawat ko? Guess it will all be up to God. Please dispose of everything, Lord. I don't wanna keep thinking and I definitely dun wanna be restless. Amen.

Tricky

2011-02-06T22:00:00.000-08:00

This thing about marriage is very tricky, coz you definitely cannot marry someone you don't know or don't like!

Why'd anyone marry someone that they don't know? These things take time!

Good luck with husband hunting! Can't you buy one on the internet??

Guys talaga...

Network

2011-02-04T19:30:00.000-08:00

I was on Facebook chat with Jeff Powell last night. He said he's doing a PhD at SOAS in London. Wow! Told him I wanna do a PhD too. Will apply for admission to Groningen. He said drop me a line if you ever come back here. Sure Jeff, all the best. Hope to see u soon indeed!!

Indian

2011-01-31T04:10:00.000-08:00

Maybe I'm meant to be with an Indian. Finally had a chat with Raj. He wants to improve his English daw oi mao he wants to chat with me. Let's see how this will turn out. All up to God!

He said I'm too old and that I should find someone to marry. Cge gud!

Again!

2011-01-31T04:06:00.000-08:00

I finally found Christian on Facebook today. I added him, told him that I miss his encouraging words during our NUS days and that I hope he'd accept me.

I need to do this so that I could move on. Good luck, Doki! :)

PhD Again

2011-01-28T20:42:00.000-08:00

I have to be here in Cebu/Philippines this time simply bcoz my family needs me. I do miss PP everyday but I just cannot be there. Besides, the job I found here is much better than there.

I will shoot for PhD one last time in Utrecht. I'm working on the research proposal. If madawat, I might start ig January next yr pohon. I have to be here in Philippines and I cannot go on a paid leave yet so isingit n lng n sya with my work pohon. Okay ra man sad coz I don't have to be there man and they won't charge me tuition. I plan to apply sa NUFFIC for the funding. Hopefully it will be enough. If dili, ngita lain source/s.

God will take care of everything. I entrust everything to him :)

Keep Your Eyes Open

2011-01-22T18:33:00.000-08:00

My very good friend in Singapore told me to always keep my eyes open. Thanks She, God bless you and Lei always! Miss you.

Men!!!

2011-01-13T16:54:00.001-08:00

He's not coming here anymore. We've said goodbye to each other. I think it's for the best.

He wanted to stay in my house when he comes to Cebu. Of course I said no, why would he?? He doesn't like it and he has no time daw for childish courtship rituals so he is not coming here anymore. Bahala sya.

He said 'please leave me alone...I want to forget that we ever met.' Aray!

Everything's gonna be okay. I keep the faith!

Season 2

2011-01-12T02:45:00.000-08:00

They started Season 2 of the Globalteer Football tournament last Sunday, 9 January. I follow the action thru Facebook only. I watched only one game last year and I met Mab there. I really miss it. Hope to see you in May, guys!

Coming?

2011-01-12T02:43:00.000-08:00

Coz I told him on the email that I might as well pay for my way so that he won't expect anything from me, he suggested to come over for a few days. Wow that's nice, I'd really appreciate it! Now it'd just be a matter of waiting if he'd really come.

God bless us!

Nev Aussie

2011-01-10T18:15:00.000-08:00

I met him in PP when I volunteered to teach English. He fell in love with me kuno when I first smiled at him. That was at CWF entrance, I remember that very well, the first day of our Khmer lesson.

He gave me his contact info when our term was over. Then he returned to PP soon. Then the crazy Filipina thing. Wah!

We've been in touch. Bisan unsa n lng to amo istoryahan. I told him of my problems pud.

He's willing to pay daw for my ticket to come to Penang. Should I go or not?? God bless me!

New Year 2011

2010-12-31T17:15:00.001-08:00

I had quite a good year in 2010. I'm just looking forward to a fruitful 2011. Happy New Year to us all!!!

Men!

2010-12-27T19:00:00.000-08:00

I heard it somewhere that if magkabuang na ka'g pili among guys, hapit na ka magminyo. Coz last Christmas night, nanawag daw si Charles. I left my fone as usual so we weren't able to talk. Then pagka-26 nitext sad si Sopheap, my former English student, asking if I have a husband. I said I'm looking for one. Hahah!

Then napa jud, kinsa gani to?? Basta I just keep the faith. Maayos din ang lahat ng ito. Manalig ka lang, Doki.

Tired

2010-12-17T18:54:00.000-08:00

I'm tired of chasing after him. Coz true, I left him in PP in 2008 and just kept in touch with him when I was in Philippines. I invited him to Philippines but la mn syay klaro.

He was in Siem Reap when I came back to PP in 2009. I saw him 2x there --when he ran in the AWHM and in one of the games of the Globalteer football tournament. Then he came back to PP, he went back to teaching English at our school.

We had a falling out because of something silly. Because of this, I ignored him when he came back to our campus last June. He only lasted two weeks, he left. He is teaching again in Plaza since September. I told him goodbye when I left PP last October. But I couldn't help myself, I still email him!

Actually he told me that he's getting close to this Khmer girl from his other school. It's okay, I wished them all the best alrdy. He never really said he liked me.

Last night I told him that he'll always be a special part of my PP memory. Told him I'll see him when I see him in future. I just dunno when. Could be May next year, could be not...

Everything's gonna be okay. I keep the faith!

How??

2010-12-17T06:01:00.000-08:00

I think of how I could survive the holidays here this time. I am missing Phnom Penh so much!! I miss the kids, I miss my Phnom Penh group and I just miss everything there!

Just now my colleague Jacy asked me if given the chance, I'd go back to Phnom Penh. I said of course, you don't know what you're telling me...

But PP didn't give me a good job. I wasn't really needed there, I just happen to be one of those teachers they needed who came along. I guess given time, I could put my feelings into perspective. Just be patient, Doki!!

Give Up

2010-12-10T17:35:00.000-08:00

It's true. I do give up so easily on men. Like with someone in SG or another one in PP. He wanted to introduce me to his girlfriend who was visiting mn gud. On Holy Week. And I saw the one in PP with a Khmer girl. Met them at the back of Lucky Supermarket before I went home the 1st time. Hahay gudluck!

"A faint heart never won a fair lady" is as much applicable to girls daw these days per Nev. I just love his words of wisdom, thank u! :)

It's Gonna Be Okay

2010-12-10T17:26:00.000-08:00

Things are gonna be okay. I know that. If he's dating a new girl, it means we were not meant to be right from the start. He's not a bad person, he was just not the right person for me.

God bless us all!!

Run

2010-12-03T18:22:00.000-08:00

This time of the year there's a big event in Siem Reap --the Angkor Wat Half Marathon. I went there with Yuka last year, we waited for Nick to finish his 21K. Took him a little over 1hr 20mins.

I will miss it this year. But I'm gonna run tomorrow at the Red Cross marathon in the Terraces. 5K lng sa kay 1st time pa man and ang 3K is for kids man daw.

Good luck to me! Naglakaw2 na ko diri city for 1hr or so. Just now Dexter said magstretch daw first.

Okay, till tomorrow then. If I don't like running, I can always go play badminton! :)

New Nephew

2010-11-22T19:45:00.000-08:00

My sister gave birth to a bouncing baby boy yday. My second and newest nephew. Wow, nana koy kadungan magbday nga kapamilya. Grabe!

Crush

2010-11-19T01:47:00.004-08:00

Maybe he was just my crush. I met him in Phnom Penh in June 2008. I went to look at his apartment in TTP. I didn't get the apartment coz it was beyond what I could afford. I didn't have a job that time. I thought I'd never see him again. Then I saw him 2wks later in school. Wahh, PP is such a small city!!

I must admit I ran away from him due to my bad experience in SG. Because of that we never really dated. We just kept in touch thru email/Facebook. Then when I said I'm planning to return to PP, he said he was planning to leave. He was alrdy in Siem Reap when I returned in Oct '09, he worked for an NGO.

I saw him twice in Siem Reap --first during the AWHM and 2nd at their football tournament. I dragged my Japanese friend who was visiting to the AWHM and didto mn sa KH one of our alumni so I went to their tournament na rin. It was very promising, they're now on their 2nd season as we speak.

He came back to PP in April '10. He invited me to lunch. Then I invited him to Singapore Kitchen. He canceled at the last minute. After a month, he came back to our campus. I ignored him till he left after about 2wks.

I told him I was hurt with what he did, canceling on the SG Kitchen thing. He said, "Don't dwell on these things, life is too short". I said, "Okay, I'll move on then. Thanks, enjoy your life!" Actually I counted off all the times mn gd when he said no and that was the final straw.

I went home in October coz my aunt got sick. Now I'm here in Cebu working.I had booked a ticket to PP in May. I told him that I definitely don't want to see him in Plaza anymore so if he cannot spare the time to meet up with me, never mind. I'll visit my old campus n lng pohon.

In Siem Reap during the football tournament, he told me that I should go get married soon. I said no, I'm not getting married. Recently, I told him why I said that. He said, 'Do you want to get married? Not everyone does, right?' Maybe he doesn't want to marry me coz he's dating a Khmer girl man daw. Whatever! I wish them all the best.

I know I'll meet someone new. I keep the faith!!

Vindication

2010-11-19T01:47:00.003-08:00

Hehe, kabawos na ko. On Facebook he said that the girl cancelled on their dinner date. Nagluto pa naman daw sya. Kabawos na ko! He cancelled on me at the last hour din with the Singapore Kitchen thing last May.

Definitely time to move on. Matter of time. Good luck to us all!

Letting Go and Moving On

2010-11-19T01:47:00.001-08:00

Today I have decided to forget him and move on. It just cannot work out; we're in 2 different cities leading 2 separate lives. I'd always have the memories. I keep the faith!!

Thoughts

2010-11-19T01:47:00.000-08:00

I suddenly feel down. It's because I have a new schedule this time --I hope it's final, no more changes in the pipeline. Instead of 830-930 now I have 1130-1230. I'm not particularly happy with it but I do hope we'll have a good semester together.

I'm suddenly finding things so boring. I can only keep the faith. Good luck, Heide!! :)

CDU

2010-11-05T04:19:00.000-07:00

I'm now with CDU. Got accepted last Wed, 3 Nov and was told to start right away. Wow, 2nd chance! I only pray for the best...

5 Years Now

2010-10-24T19:17:00.000-07:00

It has been 5yrs since nagpaag2 ko in life. Here's the breakdown:

2005 April I didn't work at USC coz magprepare lagi daw for NUS

August I went to Singapore to study PhD in Economics at NUS. Hay kataas! It was a disaster right from the start. Ako brother tawn napurdoy and I ended up withdrawing the program...

2006 June I went home from Singapore. I was unemployed till November. I stayed on at USC till the end of my return service.

2007 November Start of my leave without pay from USC. I decided to go back to NUS man

2008 I came back to NUS but di n mn nako makaya tiwason ang program so I went to Cambodia. I stayed there till November. I worked at an English school teaching Koreans from 8 Dec to 9 Jan. '09

2009 January Came to Legazpi to work at Fr. Jovic's NGO. I only lasted 4 months. I went home in May and facilitated my clearance with USC. I left for PP again in Oct.
I came back to my school in Cambodia. I stayed there till Oct. 2010

2010 October I went home to Philippines. Nasakit man si Mommy Sering and nagplano n mn sd molarga si Bantil. Ako n lng pud uban sa mga old. Find n lng pud ko work diri duol. Good luck to me! :)

I'm Still in a Bind

2010-10-18T19:59:00.000-07:00

Hay, Heide. You can never escape your past, it would always be there to haunt you. At least I saw Giselle Lamban today, I'm happy. While there's life, there's hope!!

Mam Delia said big time na daw kos USC. If she only knew....

I remember my Econ 48 Econ Dev class after I came back from NUS. I was trying to explain the Harrod-Domar model. And Rogie de la Cuesta gave the better explanation. Hahay, math econ is not my domain... Still, I pray for the best!

Another Death

2010-10-16T22:32:00.001-07:00

I learned that my hiskul klasm8, Janjan Durango passed away last August. Wow, two of my friends died in July and August. Nagkatiguwang n jd diay ko...

Happy Sunday!!

Back in Bohol

2010-10-11T18:52:00.000-07:00

I'm now in Bohol. Ako n kuno pud uban sa amo mga tiguwang diri. Everything is strange, I miss PP more! But I know that I have to be here. If ever magminyo ko pohon, di na sila magmahay nako kay nakapuyo na mn ko with them, nakaserbisyo n mn. Good luck to me!!

Ako na Lang

2010-09-11T20:39:00.000-07:00

I have decided to be the one to stay with my mother pohon. Molarga mn kuno si Bantil for UK pohon and maglisud n mn mi pangita ug mouban nila. Bisan adto n lng ko teach sa Mater Dei then teach pud sa USC kung madala during weekends. I just told Bantil unya n ko uli pohon kung klaro na iya paglarga. God bless to all our plans!

Last night we were at Marge's place (House A) for Christine's bday celebration. We talked na of our CLP in October pohon right after 10-10-10. Join lng ko but magready n lng pud ko for when I have to go home for good. Everything's gonna be ok. I keep the faith!

Powerful Poem

2010-08-29T02:32:00.000-07:00

Here's what I got on the internet about Khalil Gibran's poem on Love :)

Kahlil Gibran on Love

When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

http://www.katsandogz.com/onlove.html

September

2010-08-27T03:39:00.000-07:00

We had a meeting in skul today for the incoming skul yr in Sept. I'll be teaching 20hrs lng per week, Social Studies Grade 4 and 5. Well, I talked to the Vice Principal this afternoon. It's not so bad naman. I'll just have to think of my own welfare, that is, if I don't get a good pay here, I'll definitely think of going to Singapore. I dun wanna go home yet so I want to try my luck again in SG. God bless my plans!

Vacation

2010-08-21T00:14:00.000-07:00

Just finished our kindergarten graduation so officially on vacation till 1st September. I'll be teaching Social Studies and Health daw in the next skul year. It's a new start, I think I like it!

I got an award for Best Teacher. Haha. The last time I got an award was college graduation, I think. Coz in my graduation at ISS, I only got a certificate. In one Faculty Assembly at USC, I got recognition for my studies at ISS. But not really a Best Teacher award. So okay, I'm happy with it.

Good luck, Doki!

Lucy Gakii Kirimi (+)

2010-08-13T03:31:00.000-07:00

I learned today that my good friend from Kenya, Lucy Gakii Kirimi passed away last July 30. I even made sure that it was really correct, I saw her death and funeral notice.

I'm gonna miss her. We've been fairly in touch since our ISS days.

Rest in peace, Lucy. See you in the next life!

School

2010-08-11T02:05:00.000-07:00

I have been in school for the rest of my life! Just today I saw our pictures in the yearbook. I'm so amused! I didn't stay long enough to be included in the yearbook last time. Now I have my pic in there with my K3G class, cute!

Gipit

2010-08-07T21:09:00.000-07:00

This time I'm gipit coz I paid up Marije for the amount I borrowed from her last year for the TESOL course. Naikog man gud ko when she said la pa syay work.

I paid her up and then I also need to buy an electric fan plus possibly new sandals for school since kaput na man ako power sandals. Hehe..Basin 20 n lng ako mapadala ani sa Pinas for my Citibank. Next payday n lng pohon ang para sa ako Philam. Life talaga...

Graduation in School

2010-08-03T03:30:00.000-07:00

Start na mi practice today for our graduation on 21 August. Kanta mi "Waving Flag" as our graduation song.

Human na 1 school year. La ra hibaw-i. Seems like yesterday when I came back to our old school. I keep the faith.

Let me look back on how this school year went:

Term I (Sept to Nov -I came back in October):

I went to Kampong Som with Ate Ica during Water Festival holiday. We got on the banana boat.

I celebrated my bday quietly. Lunch ra mi ni Ate Ica at KFC in Pencil.

I went with Yuka to Siem Reap for the AWHM. Lipong2 ko ato na trip which took 24hrs in all! But I'm really glad Yuka came to visit me!

Term II (Dec to Feb)

Christmas!! Twas my 3rd Christmas in a foreign country! I survived it coz busy mn pud mi prepare for our charity event. Ex Dono was 6 Feb Sat with our special guest, Makisig Morales. We had holiday in skul for Chinese New Year. I went to Saigon then, exit. Incidentally, the 2nd day of the Chinese New Year (Feb 14) was also Valentine's Day. Ate Ica and I got a rose from Cafe Yejj in TTP.

By end Feb I knew that I was gonna stay on in skul till August. I'd say I fought to stay at my job that week.

Term III (Mar to May)

Went to Siem Reap again. Merky with Vance were in town. Went to watch Globalteer's football games also.
Went to Kampot/Kep with Ate Ica for Khmer New Year outing.
Lost the elephant necklace that my student Nata gave me in VIP Club when we went swimming with K- Arn and Sally and Ate Malyn. Tsk tsk..

Term 4 (June to Aug)
Nagresign ang mga puti in our school --Teacher Luke and Teacher Jeanette left.
Teacher Nick came back pero he only lasted 2weeks.
World Cup time! I went to Siem Reap again on 18-20 June. Paiba lng!
Then assessment tests na for Term 4. Time to determine the honour students!
Then practice for graduation.

And that's it, that's my school year in brief. My K2G and K3G classes changed classrooms due to the Nursery classes. I thought I would be shaken by the change but I survived it!

I might go to grades 1/2/3 in the next school year. I said I would like to give it a try. I hope I'd be given the chance. If not, stay where I am!

Trip Home Pohon

2010-07-30T20:59:00.000-07:00

Wow, I'm excited!! Uli ko October 7-11 pohon (Pchum Benh) for my father's 9th death anniv. End of October ta to but gahol man sa oras. Hopefully magkatapok mi ana pohon. I pray for the best!

"Miles Away"

2010-07-23T03:34:00.000-07:00

I watched "The Proposal" again last night on Star Movies. I couldn't help but be reminded of someone I met in Singapore. He saw me go through everything in SG! And he even wanted me to re-establish my relationship with God. But I left Singapore in 2006. And while I've been in touch with this friend, he's now out of my reach. So I can only sing this song for him:

Miles away
You're so many miles away
Living my lonely life
To live another day
Without you
Miles away
You're so many miles away
From me
And I can't find you
All those miles away

The Dutch Lost

2010-07-18T00:59:00.000-07:00

Yes, the Dutch lost in the World Cup Final to Spain.

I had a miserable week last week. I thought it started with a promising news but then napurnada pagka-Saturday. O well, di pud ko gusto adto Choamchao oi, probinsya na man to!

Keep your cool, Doki. Do your best!

STAR Movies

2010-07-09T18:37:00.000-07:00

For two straight nights now, I have watched real nice movies on this channel. Karon pa lang worth every cent na ako gibayad sa cable.

Thu, 8/7/10 evening was "Confessions of a Shopaholic" and last night was "The Proposal". I just love those movies!! Actually I couldn't remember anymore the last time I watched a movie, English one that I really loved. I only remember that I left my "Lake House" VCD ila Ivy in SG. Good luck to me! :)

World Cup

2010-07-05T03:11:00.000-07:00

I first had an interest in footabll in 1998, when France hosted and won the World Cup. I had asked Harry then why the Netherlands was Pay-Bas in French.

In the 2002 World Cup in Korea/Japan, I had a student nga nalate ug sud klase coz nitan-aw pa World Cup didto.

In 2006, I asked a postcard from Jamie. Germany mn ang host sa World Cup. Italy diay to nakadaug.

This time, the Dutch have a very big chance of winning it! Gipildi gud nila ang powerhouse Brazil team. Pakulba kaau ang semifinals with Uruguay, abi nako moapas na to. And tomorrow night, they'll face Spain. Basin maglisud sila coz robo kaau moduwa ang mga Espanol. Pero I'm always hopeful. Go Oranje!...

Place

2010-06-28T20:14:00.000-07:00

I thought that if I'd go to a foreign place or a place where nobody knows me, I could just be lost in all of it and forget things. I was mistaken. Coz the place may be different but I would still be meeting people. Di ko rin maiwasan to share myself. Good luck, Doki!

Siem Reap 3

2010-06-18T19:00:00.000-07:00

I am in Siem Reap for the 3rd time. I sent my CV to 2 univs this am. Tan-awon lng nato unsay gawas ato. God bless my plans!!

I Quit

2010-06-15T04:05:00.001-07:00

Today is my last day at Camtech. Actually niadto ra ko aron magkuha sa ako allowance. Giundangan n nko oi. Gabii na kaau ko mouli kada gabii nya at the end of the month, transpo allowance ra diay ako makuha? $50 pa jud. Nya di gud na sayon ila ipabuhat, ipadali pa. Ngita n lng jud ko lain. God bless my plans!! :)

Decision Time

2010-06-07T20:10:00.000-07:00

I like it here in Cambodia, Lord. But the jobs I found are not that good, I mean, I am not secured in my work and I am not teaching fulltime. I found an opportunity with a language school but gamay ra pud allowance. Right now I'm asking for a higher allowance coz lugi ko if gamay ra ila ihatag no?

I pray for the best. If wala jud nindut moabot, uli sa Pinas by Sept. pohon. God bless my plans!

Last Term

2010-06-04T20:09:00.000-07:00

On the start of our last term in school, 3 English teachers decided to leave. What??

Actually, nice n bya ako nakit-an n work didtos kindergarten skul. But I want a better job Lord. Sana makahanap ako ng bago by September pohon....

I'm doing well mn sad sa English skul. So far, I'm developing an English program based on the New Headway books. Mahirap sa umpisa but makaya ra man diay. Good luck to me!

I just trust God. Di nya ko pababayaan. Happy weekend!

Volunteer

2010-05-22T02:34:00.000-07:00

I only asked to volunteer at Camtech. Wow, they offered me a part-time post. Assistant to the Mgmt pa ang job description and I will sort of intern for 3mos. wherein they'll only provide me with transportation allowance. After 3months, they'll review daw my performance and I might be offered a full-time post. I pray for the best, bigay to lahat ng Diyos e. Happy weekend, everyone! :)

Men!@#%

2010-04-24T21:02:00.000-07:00

I'm getting very nice insights on men this time from Reymar. Lingaw kaau! Di pa daw ko ana, ang haba ng hair ko! God bless you, Reymar! Always.

YM

2010-04-22T03:58:00.000-07:00

Cge na mi YM ni Johnroy these days. La daw sya load for summer so he'll work on his thesis. Told him I could lend a hand if he wants me to...

I have talked to him abt a lot of things na. He knew abt my sentiments w/ PH n mn. Good luck to us n lng, c u nya pohon... :)

Yuka

2010-04-09T21:15:00.000-07:00

She was the first to visit me here in PP since I came back. Last end Oct 09 ta to but namatay mn iya lolo so it was rescheduled to 1st wk of Dec. Grabe to na trip oi, hectic kaau. We went to Siem Reap and back in 24hrs! Then she made time to visit me in kindergarten skul and took pictures with me and the kids :) She said 'you're obviously much happier here than in SG'...Such a good friend!

Now she's back in Japan and working in a similar post as her work in SG daw. She just went to Laos but she said she's pretty sure she'll be in Cambodia in a few months. Thanks, Yuka; see u here soon. God bless!!

Full Circle

2010-03-12T19:10:00.000-08:00

I had asked Madon this week for advice on my life. She gave me really good advice. "Magsumikap ka ng husto para mabayaran mo ang brother mo"...Kahit matanda na daw ako, I could save my pride and integrity daw if I could do it.

That's what I would do. Good luck to me!

Siem Reap 2

2010-03-06T03:10:00.000-08:00

I am in Siem Reap again this weekend. My former student, Merky is in town; this is her 1st stop in Cambodia.Travel n lng pud mi dungan to PP pohon. Then she would exit to Saigon and return to Manila pohon. Grabe nilang wara2 oi; SG pa gud cla 1st then KL then Phuket then Bangkok then Cambodia na...5 countries in 2wks!

I remember the time with Yuka here last December. It was a very hectic schedule: I picked her up from the airport at 7am then we travelled to Siem Reap at 10am. Sa amo kakapoy, 645pm p lng tulog na mi!!

I wish Yuka is okay. She was concerned she may not find a job in Japan. Kaya yan, Yuka, ajah! :)

Ate Jing

2010-03-01T01:51:00.000-08:00

Ate Ica is really a very nice sister to have. Kakabalik lng nya from a holiday in Phils. She brought all my books in SG. Kabaguod tawn sya bitbit but diri ra sya nireklamo when nagkita na mi.

She also bought me blouses in Gaisano Mactan coz she took note of Mdm Shirley's comment that probinsyana daw ko manamit. Then she bought me a handbag also, and a T-shirt from Singapore. I pray to God to bless her more. As K-Mart said, she is admired for her simplicity and her sincerity. Mag-37 na si Ate Ica ig March 30 pohon. Kadali.

Mauwaw ko niya if magminyo ko ahead. We'll see.

Have a nice week everyone!! :)

"Shinee"

2010-02-26T23:53:00.000-08:00

I went to watch the Korean boyband "Shinee" in concert last Tuesday night at the Olympic Indoor Arena. This was largely sponsored by Cellcard. Teacher Zaii and I went to watch it. Lingaw kaau coz we didn't have tickets to go. A lady sold us her ticket when we were coming out of Citymall. At the entrance, I saw Piseth also (former TA in CWF) and he helped us get tickets to the concert.

The group only performed only 5 or 6 songs. The concert ended shortly after 8pm. I thought, kasayo ba ani mahuman nga concert oi! Sagdi n lng coz we would have paid more than $5 if they sang more.

Enjoy summer!!!

Hang On

2010-02-26T23:50:00.000-08:00

I have decided to hang on to my current job. May n lng ni kaysa wala. I'll just look for a better one at the end of the school year. Good luck to me!!

Joyce

2010-02-06T22:12:00.000-08:00

I met up with Joyce (Nev's friend and landlady daw) for dinner last Friday night. She asked, "Why do you move so much?" Then she said maybe part of the reason why is because you're not yet settled emotionally. Once you're settled emotionally, you tend to work around it. She's a very nice woman, she gave me a box of Ferrero Rocher chocolates! God bless you, Joyce :)

Happy weekend everyone!

Phase

2010-01-28T02:22:00.000-08:00

I remember a scene in "Maging Sino Ka Man" when JB Berenguer (played by Sam Milby) questioned himself if he's still good. And Celine (played by Anne Curtis) replied, "Magaling ka (JB), nahihirapan ka lang ngayon". I think I am also in that phase. I am really having a hard time with my K2F that's why I'm thinking of leaving Cambodia/Western. Pun-an pa that my visa is gonna expire this Saturday...

But I alrdy told the Lord that if di ko madawat sa LUCT basin mouli ko. Di mn ko pwede mag-ambak2 gud. I have to stay in one place sooner or later. Tiguwang na ko oi!

Change

2010-01-20T02:17:00.000-08:00

It's true, change takes time. It has not been easy for me to deal with the change. True, I left my post at USC but I didn't do it just out of the blue. Since 2003 pa gud ko nagtudlo ug puro service courses lang. I even went to NUS then to Cambodia and to Legazpi before I finally decided to do my clearance from USC. But I know that since I want change, then sooner or later I'd get it. I'll just have to be steadfast, I made the decision e.

My Brother

2010-01-13T01:44:00.000-08:00

I once told Jonathan that I love my brother coz I only have one brother in the whole world. It's true and I always get emotional about it.

Yesterday I was on the YM with him. He would've wanted to call me but as I was in the Teacher's Room and had no headphone, chat n lng mi.

He brought up the topic of who will accompany the olds in Tinangnan. Gusto na man gud si Bantil motrabaho.

I have actually been estranged from him since I did something wrong by him. Ako man gud gigamit iya money in 2003 mao la na sya pangtraining so nisakay n lng sya balik dayon.

In spite of that, he supported me when I was having a hard time in SG in 2006 but grabe pud niya yaw2 in exchange. Why not, more or less P200,000 na gud niya ako nagasto tanan2! Sya pay nibayad sa Palm Heights coz I didn't have allowance in SG man.

He got married in August 2007. Since 2005 pa man to sya gusto magminyo. Lisud man gud pud life sa seaman.

He called me up before I left for SG again in January 2008. While I was in SG he msgd me too. He said pul-an na sya Magsaysay, hinay ang promotion.

Then I went to Cambodia and I only talked to him once, on Mothers' Day. He asked unsa nawong sa PP. I said mora ra gud ug Tagbilaran.

When I went home in November, he alrdy left for another contract. Then I went to work in Legazpi. He msgd me on 31 Jan 2009; they were in Germany daw. He emailed that he was coming home in mid-March, I was still in Leg.

I went home on 17 May 2009 and he made time to see me also two days later. Hapit sya Cebu from Manila before going home. He msgd on 14 Sept 2009 at 5am that he was in the airport waiting for his flight. La man ko load so la ko reply.

I know that he loves me and that he won't hesitate to beat whoever guy that would hurt me. When I went home after coming to their ship in Amsterdam in March 2001, nakihitch ko sa supplies truck. When I got in the truck, he pointed to the driver, "You take care of my sister". That's how fierce my brother is.

I love my family and I thank the Lord so much for them. May araw din na makabawi ako sa kanila lahat...

Worth

2010-01-04T19:28:00.000-08:00

In my restlessness, I woke up at 1am last night and opened my Bible. I was directed to the letters of St Paul, particularly Romans and Galatians. I remember these lines and I quote, "All things are done according to God's purpose and direction..", "If you pretend to be something when you are really nothing, then you are deceiving yourself" "Do not worry about anything" Good luck to me, may I grow more spiritually...

Stability

2010-01-04T19:22:00.000-08:00

It's been 2years since I left a very stable job in USC. What has happened to me since then??

I came back to SG in January 2008 but since I knew I couldn't possibly finish my studies, I dropped out and went to Cambodia in February. I didn't want to go home then and go back to USC. It took me 3months before I decided to volunteer here in PP. Then I found a job as a kindergarten teacher. But I came home in November coz I didn't like being discriminated. Why would they do that to me? I found a job in Legazpi early last year but I also didn't survive in it. I am still looking for a post as stable as, if not better than, USC. Good luck to me!!

Lava

2009-12-31T19:17:00.000-08:00

Recently I heard from Lava Thapa, my Nepali classmate in ISS. He asked me for our other classmates' emails. He started the ball rolling again. Sya mn to niemail nga since nanguli daw mi to our respective countries, la na mi contact. Didto daw sa ISS, everyday we say hi and hello to each other.

God bless you and your family, Lava. I might make it to Nepal one of these days. We'll see about that. Keep in touch!!

New Year 2010

2009-12-31T19:05:00.000-08:00

Last New Year 2009, I was looking forward to a new city and a new work. I was up for work then at SEDP Inc. in Legazpi City. True enough I went but I only lasted four months. I went home, stayed for a while in Cebu then came back to PP in October.

Now I'm still looking for a better job. I have payables man gud. But if la koy makit-an then I'll stay with Western. Basin naa diay moabot some time soon. I keep the faith. God bless us more in the New Year...