Stability

It's been 2years since I left a very stable job in USC. What has happened to me since then??

I came back to SG in January 2008 but since I knew I couldn't possibly finish my studies, I dropped out and went to Cambodia in February. I didn't want to go home then and go back to USC. It took me 3months before I decided to volunteer here in PP. Then I found a job as a kindergarten teacher. But I came home in November coz I didn't like being discriminated. Why would they do that to me? I found a job in Legazpi early last year but I also didn't survive in it. I am still looking for a post as stable as, if not better than, USC. Good luck to me!!

Contentment

Is this phase that I am in really just a matter of contentment?

I found an opportunity to train as call centre agent this week. We actually started training today, training is gonna last for thirteen days.

But a part of me still wants to be in Cambodia. Call/contact centre is a very demanding job. After six months pa daw pwede kamove on to other positions. Nick said good luck with it. He hoped it would satisfy my requirements daw and that I find fulfillment in it. Requirements, what is that???

Di na sad ko kahibaw asa ko, Cebu or PP. Please help me figure it out Lord. Amen.

Passion/Acceptance

I have to accept that I do belong in the academe. Yun lng naman gusto ko gawin e, mag-aral at magturo.

I met Mam Ching yesterday, she told me to move on. For me this means finding a new school to affiliate with Lord. Di na man ko gusto sa USC. Please help me, I keep the faith!

Words

Words don't come easy to me
But you will always be
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I am going to miss SEDP, Legazpi etc.
But I have to go home
I have been away for far too long!
Will see you soon...:)

PAG-IBIG and SSS

Today I went to Pag-Ibig to have my records transferred from Cebu. I also went to SSS. Well, I haven't been contributing to both since Oct 2007. Ang SSS ang medyo problema kay di ko kaloan till mabayran ako outstanding balance.

I thought this must be it, that I may be here in Legaspi for a while. But then, I think of PP too so I dunno. If God would give me a job there, He would really want me to be back there again. If not, la koy mahimo, I cannot force things.

I still keep the faith. While there's life, there's hope.

Going Back

I once read a verse in the Bible that anyone who starts to plow and keeps looking back is of no use to the Kingdom of God. I came here to Cambodia, I do believe God brought me here for a reason. That reason I am still waiting up to now for God to reveal to me. I always get this nagging thought that I should go back to USC; I had a very secure post there, but I didn't take care of it so now I lost it. And I wasn't happy with it anymore --since 2005, I had enough of teaching service courses.

My sister keeps telling me to think of my plans well. Ang iya ra man is the fear that basin di ko katrabaho dayon kay ig January pohon ako na bya daw bayad sa Palm Heights. Or maybe, just like the rest of my family, they don't want me to leave a very prestigious job at USC. Pero unsaon man gud na nako nang prestige if I'm not happy there anymore di ba? I'll just keep the faith. "When the funds are low and the debts are high, don't quit!" Amen.

Edge

Andrew Chua of CFC once said during the retreat that God is not safe, that is, He puts us on the edge. That is exactly what I'm going thru right now. Because I was disobedient, I declined the job in Siem Reap which I asked Him from. I'm so, so stupid! A person of less faith! Please forgive me Lord and give me another chance.

I ask myself, "Bakit ako nakikipagsapalaran dito sa Cambodia?"I have a very nice job in the university back home. But then, I am not happy with it anymore, that's why. I don't relish feeling disappointed again and again after receiving my teaching load every semester. There has to be something better than that experience right?

I just might end up teaching English here. We'll see how things would unfold. I always ask God for signs. And this time I'd really follow His direction. I hold on!

Picnic

I was reluctant to join the CFC retreat cum teambldg activity this weekend. But it was worth it! On the drive back, I got to ask myself, "Bakit sa dinami-dami ng countries sa Cambodia pa Lord? Then it came to me that I wouldn't have decided to resign from USC had I not gone to that retreat. Yes, I had thoughts of resigning from USC before but never really got the courage to do it!

Gipapahawa na ko sa ako gipuy-an, one week na lang daw ako stay. Pls help me find a new place to stay Lord. Then si Ate Jing said naa kuno koy interview sa Western International School in Siem Reap tomorrow. I thought mao na ni hinatag sa Ginoo. But then, part-time ra man diay ilang job opening as English teacher. Di ko modayon. The Academic Head is Ms Arlene Beguerras, also a Filipina. We talked, I was happy to meet her. She told me to keep in touch. I'm still thankful for everything Lord. Amen!