You by Karen Carpenter

You are the one who makes me happy
When everything else turn to gray
Yours is the voice that wakes me mornings
And sends me out into the day
You are the crowd that sits quiet
Listening to me
And all the mad sense I make
You are one of the few things
Worth remembering
And since it's so true
How could anyone mean more to me
Than you

You get what I mean... :)

Summer

It seems summer has unofficially ended with the advent of rains (and typhoons here in Legazpi). But I do miss home and the summer outings more and more. La pa man gud ko kaadto sa beach, la pa ko kakita butanding or done any summer activity.

I am just dying to get out there. But I don't have company. Why did (and do) I leave myself alone? I hardly learn my lessons in life. They're very simple actually, but I always get off the track. Tsk, tsk...Have faith, Heide!

Acceptance

Who am I really???

I have to focus on my life first, on what I have to do. My options right now are to work abroad, like for an intl NGO or study for a PhD. I need to pay for Palm Heights man. I cannot pass on the responsibility to my siblings.

If I'd get married along the way then I'm gonna be so thankful to God. If not, I cannot do anything else about it anymore. Jia you!

MEDC

Yesterday we went to the soft launching of another of Fr Jovic's projects --the MEDC (Microfinance and Entrepreneurial Devt Ctr) at Landco Business Park across Pacific Mall. They also launched the book, "Counting People In: Sharing the Bicol Agenda". I realized that I do want to do development work. But I also want to keep learning and sharing. Yes, devt work can be both inspiring and frustrating. Inspiring daw if you overcome the obstacles per Madon. I hang on.

Letting Go and Moving On

I am now in my 2nd house here in Legaspi City. I find myself alone in the room again.

I got to think about so many things last night. Yes, I do want so many things but I cannot have them all. And I realized that I don't want to be alone anymore. So I thought, uli ko Cebu pohon, work ko in Mam Genie's recommended post then plan to get married. I think if I'm lucky enough, I can get engaged (or even married) before the year is out. I keep the faith.

Friend Indeed

Today I realized the true meaning of the saying, "A friend in need is a friend indeed". I needed help and my old high school friend helped me out. I pray the Lord will keep blessing him always. Told him that if ever I'm really getting married, he'll be the first one to know. I keep the faith! :-)

Healing

I keep on saying that I must heal from my SG experience. These days I keep thinking the time must be right. After all, it's been three years since I first went to SG.

Today I talked to Corrinne on the YM. She knows Janice daw from their Student Council days in USC. They went to the 2002 Ayala Young Leaders Congress together too. My God, what a small world indeed!

It is time to heal na jud. And move forward. God bless us all!

Realize

I went to the dentist today to have my wisdom tooth extracted. I had wanted it removed coz it's impacted. Mahirap, di kasi ordinaryong bunutan. The dentist kept trying till ako na lng ang nag-giveup. I dun wanna go thru the whole thing. Naisip ko si Ate Jing kasi nagpabunot din sya ipin before at di rin nya tinuloy dahil nga masakit daw. Matatanggal din yun in time.

I realized something very important today. And it is that I have been isolating myself for a very long time, I have avoided relationships. Simple lng naman ang life e, I cannot go thru it alone!

Sage

Deepti once told me to make a decision and stick to it! Maybe that's just what I have to do. Happy Khmer New Year everyone! :-)

Precious

Yesterday I emailed Sir Frank to tell him that I've sent my resignation letter to USC alrdy (for the nth time). I said I hope he'd accept it. This is a painful but necessary step for me.

Today he replied. He said I should think more of coming back daw. Thanks a lot. Di na man gud ko kahibaw how to proceed there so I have to move on. God bless us always!

USC would always be precious to me. I hope the feeling is mutual.

Happy Easter!

Family Problems Again!

Hay kakapoy ba ani oi, abi nako human na ni problemaha. I pray for strength Lord. Amen.

Say

Ang dami na naming sinasabi sa isa't isa ah. Where is this going and how did it happen?

Well, I don't think I'll be in PP again till I could afford it. No use going there w/o a good job.

I still want to pay NUS up so that I can move on. I can shelve that part of my past.

I keep the faith!

WK

Friends say la daw sya klaro. Well, I thought it has become clearer than ever. I haven't been in touch with anyone like this before man gud. I wasted nine years and three years respectively in the past on things that were not going anywhere, no chance!

Today I had a haircut and gichika ko sa isa sa mga barbero. What is that?

I keep the faith!