Give Up

It's true. I do give up so easily on men. Like with someone in SG or another one in PP. He wanted to introduce me to his girlfriend who was visiting mn gud. On Holy Week. And I saw the one in PP with a Khmer girl. Met them at the back of Lucky Supermarket before I went home the 1st time. Hahay gudluck!

"A faint heart never won a fair lady" is as much applicable to girls daw these days per Nev. I just love his words of wisdom, thank u! :)

It's Gonna Be Okay

Things are gonna be okay. I know that. If he's dating a new girl, it means we were not meant to be right from the start. He's not a bad person, he was just not the right person for me.

God bless us all!!

Run

This time of the year there's a big event in Siem Reap --the Angkor Wat Half Marathon. I went there with Yuka last year, we waited for Nick to finish his 21K. Took him a little over 1hr 20mins.

I will miss it this year. But I'm gonna run tomorrow at the Red Cross marathon in the Terraces. 5K lng sa kay 1st time pa man and ang 3K is for kids man daw.

Good luck to me! Naglakaw2 na ko diri city for 1hr or so. Just now Dexter said magstretch daw first.

Okay, till tomorrow then. If I don't like running, I can always go play badminton! :)

New Nephew

My sister gave birth to a bouncing baby boy yday. My second and newest nephew. Wow, nana koy kadungan magbday nga kapamilya. Grabe!

Crush

Maybe he was just my crush. I met him in Phnom Penh in June 2008. I went to look at his apartment in TTP. I didn't get the apartment coz it was beyond what I could afford. I didn't have a job that time. I thought I'd never see him again. Then I saw him 2wks later in school. Wahh, PP is such a small city!! I must admit I ran away from him due to my bad experience in SG. Because of that we never really dated. We just kept in touch thru email/Facebook. Then when I said I'm planning to return to PP, he said he was planning to leave. He was alrdy in Siem Reap when I returned in Oct '09, he worked for an NGO. I saw him twice in Siem Reap --first during the AWHM and 2nd at their football tournament. I dragged my Japanese friend who was visiting to the AWHM and didto mn sa KH one of our alumni so I went to their tournament na rin. It was very promising; they're now on their 2nd season as we speak. He came back to PP in April '10. He invited me to lunch. Then I invited him to Singapore Kitchen. He canceled at the last minute. After a month, he came back to our campus. I ignored him till he left after about 2wks. I told him I was hurt with what he did, canceling on the SG Kitchen thing. He said, "Don't dwell on these things, life is too short". I said, "Okay, I'll move on then. Thanks, enjoy your life!" Actually I counted off all the times mn gd when he said no and that was the final straw. I went home in October coz my aunt got sick. Now I'm here in Cebu working.I had booked a ticket to PP in May. I told him that I definitely don't want to see him in Plaza anymore so if he cannot spare the time to meet up with me, never mind. I'll visit my old campus n lng pohon. In Siem Reap during the football tournament, he told me that I should go get married soon. I said no, I'm not getting married. Recently, I told him why I said that. He said, 'Do you want to get married? Not everyone does, right?' Maybe he doesn't want to marry me coz he's dating a Khmer girl man daw. Whatever! I wish them all the best. I know I'll meet someone new. I keep the faith!!

Vindication

Hehe, kabawos na ko. On Facebook he said that the girl cancelled on their dinner date. Nagluto pa naman daw sya. Kabawos na ko! He cancelled on me at the last hour din with the Singapore Kitchen thing last May.

Definitely time to move on. Matter of time. Good luck to us all!

Letting Go and Moving On

Today I have decided to forget him and move on. It just cannot work out; we're in 2 different cities leading 2 separate lives. I'd always have the memories. I keep the faith!!

Thoughts

I suddenly feel down. It's because I have a new schedule this time --I hope it's final, no more changes in the pipeline. Instead of 830-930 now I have 1130-1230. I'm not particularly happy with it but I do hope we'll have a good semester together.

I'm suddenly finding things so boring. I can only keep the faith. Good luck, Heide!! :)

CDU

I'm now with CDU. Got accepted last Wed, 3 Nov and was told to start right away. Wow, 2nd chance! I only pray for the best...

5 Years Now

It has been 5yrs since nagpaag2 ko in life. Here's the breakdown:

2005 April I didn't work at USC coz magprepare lagi daw for NUS

August I went to Singapore to study PhD in Economics at NUS. Hay kataas sa standards! It was a disaster right from the start. Ako brother tawn napurdoy and I ended up withdrawing from the program...

2006 June I went home from Singapore. I was unemployed till November. I stayed on at USC till the end of my return service.

2007 November Start of my leave without pay from USC. I decided to go back to NUS man

2008 Jan I came back to NUS but di n mn nako makaya tiwason ang program so I went to Cambodia. I stayed there till November. I worked at an English school teaching Koreans here in Cebu from 8 Dec to 9 Jan. '09

2009 January I came to Legazpi to work at Fr. Jovic's NGO. I only lasted 4 months. I went home in May and facilitated my clearance with USC. I left for PP again in Oct.
I came back to my school in Cambodia. I stayed there till Oct. 2010

2010 October I went home to Philippines. Nasakit man si Mommy Sering and nagplano n mn sd molarga si Bantil. Ako n lng pud uban sa mga old. Find n lng pud ko work diri duol. Good luck to me! :)

I'm Still in a Bind

Hay, Heide. You can never escape your past, it would always be there to haunt you. At least I saw Giselle Lamban today, I'm happy. While there's life, there's hope!!

Mam Delia said big time na daw kos USC. If she only knew....

I remember my Econ 48 Econ Dev class after I came back from NUS. I was trying to explain the Harrod-Domar model. And Rogie de la Cuesta gave the better explanation. Hahay, math econ is not my domain... Still, I pray for the best!

Another Death

I learned that my hiskul klasm8, Janjan Durango passed away last August. Wow, two of my friends died in July and August. Nagkatiguwang n jd diay ko...

Happy Sunday!!

Back in Bohol

I'm now in Bohol. Ako n kuno pud uban sa amo mga tiguwang diri. Everything is strange, I miss PP more! But I know that I have to be here. If ever magminyo ko pohon, di na sila magmahay nako kay nakapuyo na mn ko with them, nakaserbisyo n mn. Good luck to me!!