PhD Again

I have to be here in Cebu/Philippines this time simply bcoz my family needs me. I do miss PP everyday but I just cannot be there. Besides, the job I found here is much better than there.

I will shoot for PhD one last time in Utrecht. I'm working on the research proposal. If madawat, I might start ig January next yr pohon. I have to be here in Philippines and I cannot go on a paid leave yet so isingit n lng n sya with my work pohon. Okay ra man sad coz I don't have to be there man and they won't charge me tuition. I plan to apply sa NUFFIC for the funding. Hopefully it will be enough. If dili, ngita lain source/s.

God will take care of everything. I entrust everything to him :)

Keep Your Eyes Open

My very good friend in Singapore, Sheryl Navarez told me to always keep my eyes open. Thanks She, God bless you and Lei always! Miss you.

Men!!!

He's not coming here anymore. We've said goodbye to each other. I think it's for the best.

He wanted to stay in my house when he comes to Cebu. Of course I said no, why would he?? He doesn't like it and he has no time daw for childish courtship rituals so he is not coming here anymore. Bahala sya.

He said 'please leave me alone...I want to forget that we ever met.' Aray!

Everything's gonna be okay. I keep the faith!

Season 2

They started Season 2 of the Globalteer Football tournament last Sunday, 9 January. I follow the action thru Facebook only. I watched only one game last year and I met Mab there. I really miss it. Hope to see you in May, guys!

Coming?

Coz I told him on the email that I might as well pay for my way so that he won't expect anything from me, he suggested to come over for a few days. Wow that's nice, I'd really appreciate it! Now it'd just be a matter of waiting if he'd really come.

God bless us!

Nev Aussie

I met him in PP when I volunteered to teach English. He fell in love with me kuno when I first smiled at him. That was at CWF entrance, I remember that very well, the first day of our Khmer lesson.

He gave me his contact info when our term was over. Then he returned to PP soon. Then the crazy Filipina thing. Wah!

We've been in touch. Bisan unsa n lng to amo istoryahan. I told him of my problems pud.

He's willing to pay daw for my ticket to come to Penang. Should I go or not?? God bless me!

New Year 2011

I had quite a good year in 2010. I'm just looking forward to a fruitful 2011. Happy New Year to us all!!!

Men!

I heard it somewhere that if magkabuang na ka'g pili among guys, hapit na ka magminyo. Coz last Christmas night, nanawag daw si Charles. I left my fone as usual so we weren't able to talk. Then pagka-26 nitext sad si Sopheap, my former English student, asking if I have a husband. I said I'm looking for one. Hahah!

Then napa jud, kinsa gani to?? Basta I just keep the faith. Maayos din ang lahat ng ito. Manalig ka lang, Doki.

Tired

I'm tired of chasing after him. Coz true, I left him in PP in 2008 and just kept in touch with him when I was in Philippines. I invited him to Philippines but la mn syay klaro.

He was in Siem Reap when I came back to PP in 2009. I saw him 2x there --when he ran in the AWHM and in one of the games of the Globalteer football tournament. Then he came back to PP, he went back to teaching English at our school.

We had a falling out because of something silly. Because of this, I ignored him when he came back to our campus last June. He only lasted two weeks, he left. He is teaching again in Plaza since September. I told him goodbye when I left PP last October. But I couldn't help myself, I still email him!

Actually he told me that he's getting close to this Khmer girl from his other school. It's okay, I wished them all the best alrdy. He never really said he liked me.

Last night I told him that he'll always be a special part of my PP memory. Told him I'll see him when I see him in future. I just dunno when. Could be May next year, could be not...

Everything's gonna be okay. I keep the faith!

How??

I think of how I could survive the holidays here this time. I am missing Phnom Penh so much!! I miss the kids, I miss my Phnom Penh group and I just miss everything there!

Just now my colleague Jacy asked me if given the chance, I'd go back to Phnom Penh. I said of course, you don't know what you're telling me...

But PP didn't give me a good job. I wasn't really needed there, I just happen to be one of those teachers they needed who came along. I guess given time, I could put my feelings into perspective. Just be patient, Doki!!

Give Up

It's true. I do give up so easily on men. Like with someone in SG or another one in PP. He wanted to introduce me to his girlfriend who was visiting mn gud. On Holy Week. And I saw the one in PP with a Khmer girl. Met them at the back of Lucky Supermarket before I went home the 1st time. Hahay gudluck!

"A faint heart never won a fair lady" is as much applicable to girls daw these days per Nev. I just love his words of wisdom, thank u! :)

It's Gonna Be Okay

Things are gonna be okay. I know that. If he's dating a new girl, it means we were not meant to be right from the start. He's not a bad person, he was just not the right person for me.

God bless us all!!

Run

This time of the year there's a big event in Siem Reap --the Angkor Wat Half Marathon. I went there with Yuka last year, we waited for Nick to finish his 21K. Took him a little over 1hr 20mins.

I will miss it this year. But I'm gonna run tomorrow at the Red Cross marathon in the Terraces. 5K lng sa kay 1st time pa man and ang 3K is for kids man daw.

Good luck to me! Naglakaw2 na ko diri city for 1hr or so. Just now Dexter said magstretch daw first.

Okay, till tomorrow then. If I don't like running, I can always go play badminton! :)