"Shinee"

I went to watch the Korean boyband "Shinee" in concert last Tuesday night at the Olympic Indoor Arena. This was largely sponsored by Cellcard. Teacher Zaii and I went to watch it. Lingaw kaau coz we didn't have tickets to go. A lady sold us her ticket when we were coming out of Citymall. At the entrance, I saw Piseth also (former TA in CWF) and he helped us get tickets to the concert.

The group only performed only 5 or 6 songs. The concert ended shortly after 8pm. I thought, kasayo ba ani mahuman nga concert oi! Sagdi n lng coz we would have paid more than $5 if they sang more.

Enjoy summer!!!

Hang On

I have decided to hang on to my current job. May n lng ni kaysa wala. I'll just look for a better one at the end of the school year. Good luck to me!!

Joyce

I met up with Joyce (Nev's friend and landlady daw) for dinner last Friday night. She asked, "Why do you move so much?" Then she said maybe part of the reason why is because you're not yet settled emotionally. Once you're settled emotionally, you tend to work around it. She's a very nice woman, she gave me a box of Ferrero Rocher chocolates! God bless you, Joyce :)

Happy weekend everyone!

Phase

I remember a scene in "Maging Sino Ka Man" when JB Berenguer (played by Sam Milby) questioned himself if he's still good. And Celine (played by Anne Curtis) replied, "Magaling ka (JB), nahihirapan ka lang ngayon". I think I am also in that phase. I am really having a hard time with my K2F that's why I'm thinking of leaving Cambodia/Western. Pun-an pa that my visa is gonna expire this Saturday...

But I alrdy told the Lord that if di ko madawat sa LUCT basin mouli ko. Di mn ko pwede mag-ambak2 gud. I have to stay in one place sooner or later. Tiguwang na ko oi!

Change

It's true, change takes time. It has not been easy for me to deal with the change. True, I left my post at USC but I didn't do it just out of the blue. Since 2003 pa gud ko nagtudlo ug puro service courses lang. I even went to NUS then to Cambodia and to Legazpi before I finally decided to do my clearance from USC. But I know that since I want change, then sooner or later I'd get it. I'll just have to be steadfast, I made the decision e.

My Brother

I once told Jonathan that I love my brother coz I only have one brother in the whole world. It's true and I always get emotional about it. Yesterday I was on the YM with him. He would've wanted to call me but as I was in the Teacher's Room and had no headphone, chat n lng mi. He brought up the topic of who will accompany the olds in Tinangnan. Gusto na man gud si Bantil motrabaho kay since 2005 p natambay. I have actually been estranged from him since I did something wrong by him. Ako man gud gigamit iya money in 2003 mao la na sya pangtraining so nisakay n lng sya balik dayon. Nabad record siya bale kay dugay siya nga AB or Able-bodied seaman. Nangambisyon jud siya nga magseaman kay nakakita mn xas among kalisud especially when nagdungan ming tulo nila Ate Ica ug Bantil sa college. In spite of that, he supported me when I was having a hard time in SG in 2006. Bawos n cguro pud to niya kay I gave him allowance man when he was studying at University of Cebu Mambaling or Maritime Education Training Center (METC). Retired n mn si Papa ato so tuition n lng ni Dodong ang ilang bayaran. Then I helped him type also sa iyang reaction paper nga nagkadipo2 jud xa ato. And most of all, I bought him a pair of sneakers (Adidas mn cguro to) when nakasweldo n ko. Kay mao mn jud to iyang gusto. When I was home from Holland too, I gave him my Eastpak backpack and Nokia 3210 that I bought there in Europe. But grabe pud niya yaw2 in exchange for helping me out in SG. Why not, more or less P200,000 na gud niya ako nagasto tanan2! Sya pay nibayad sa akong HSBC credit card bill ug Palm Heights monthly amortization coz I didn't have allowance in SG man that time. Pastilan n lng jud k Doki. Mao jud toy panahon nga nagpabadlong ko Lord. Tungod ra jud sa akong hinanakit about what happened to my eldest sister. I wrote her a letter bitaw when I was in SG and okay n mi after that. I went home from Singapore on June 22, 2006 and few days after I came home, he came here in Cebu to see me. Kita xa nga nagkaniwang lagi tawn ko didtos Singapore. I saw him there gud in September 2005 with his fellow ship crew. Ako silang gihatod sa Port of Singapore where their ship was docked. He got married in August 2007. Since 2005 pa man to sya gusto magminyo. Lisud man gud pud life sa seaman. He called me up before I left for SG again in January 2008. While I was in SG he msgd me too. He said pul-an na sya Magsaysay, hinay ang promotion. Then I went to Cambodia and I only talked to him once, on Mothers' Day. He asked unsa nawong sa PP. I said mora ra gud ug Tagbilaran. When I went home in November, he alrdy left for another contract. Then I went to work in Legazpi. He msgd me on 31 Jan 2009; they were in Germany daw. He emailed that he was coming home in mid-March, I was still in Leg. I went home on 17 May 2009 and he made time to see me also two days later. Hapit sya Cebu from Manila before going home. He msgd on 14 Sept 2009 at 5am that he was in the airport waiting for his flight. La man ko load so la ko reply. I know that he loves me and that he won't hesitate to beat whoever guy that would hurt me. Napunta n mn gud niya ang role to protect us after my father died. When I went home after coming to their ship in Amsterdam in March 2001, nakihitch ko sa supplies truck ato. When I got in the truck, he pointed to the driver, "Uy, you take care of my sister". That's how fierce my brother is. Unsa kaha iyang reaction if magminyo n ko? Maguol pud cguro sija if malayo ko. Milaon mn gud n akong brother kay youngest man sa family. I remember when he had to go for training sa Merchant Marine Academy (MMA) in Cavite. Nahadlok jud siya ato kay pangmilitary mn lagi ang ilang training. Sa iyang kahadlok gud kay gihilantan siya. Hahah. Kay saun, he avoided CAT mn lagi in high school, nagvarsity gud xas volleyball. Pun-an pas comment sa akong papa nga 'di mn cguro pud k patyon ana' When I was in Hawaii in July 2019, I told Aunty Helen that tagboon jud n nimo silas barko kay di mn n sila basta2 makagawas gud. They waited for his call p man. Labina ug Amerika, kutob seaman's club ra jud n sila. One time nidock mn gud ug Honolulu sila Dodong and wa daw xay nakita kay gabii n mn daw to. I think the next day nilarga n pud sila. They stay for a very short while ra lagis port. Di n mn byaheng US akong brother ron, gipul-an n sija. I love my family and I thank the Lord so much for them. May araw din na makabawi ako sa kanila lahat...

Worth

In my restlessness, I woke up at 1am last night and opened my Bible. I was directed to the letters of St Paul, particularly Romans and Galatians. I remember these lines and I quote, "All things are done according to God's purpose and direction..", "If you pretend to be something when you are really nothing, then you are deceiving yourself" "Do not worry about anything" Good luck to me, may I grow more spiritually...

Stability

It's been 2years since I left a very stable job in USC. What has happened to me since then??

I came back to SG in January 2008 but since I knew I couldn't possibly finish my studies, I dropped out and went to Cambodia in February. I didn't want to go home then and go back to USC. It took me 3months before I decided to volunteer here in PP. Then I found a job as a kindergarten teacher. But I came home in November coz I didn't like being discriminated. Why would they do that to me? I found a job in Legazpi early last year but I also didn't survive in it. I am still looking for a post as stable as, if not better than, USC. Good luck to me!!

Lava

Recently I heard from Lava Thapa, my Nepali classmate in ISS. He asked me for our other classmates' emails. He started the ball rolling again. Sya mn to niemail nga since nanguli daw mi to our respective countries, la na mi contact. Didto daw sa ISS, everyday we say hi and hello to each other.

God bless you and your family, Lava. I might make it to Nepal one of these days. We'll see about that. Keep in touch!!

New Year 2010

Last New Year 2009, I was looking forward to a new city and a new work. I was up for work then at SEDP Inc. in Legazpi City. True enough I went but I only lasted four months. I went home, stayed for a while in Cebu then came back to PP in October.

Now I'm still looking for a better job. I have payables man gud. But if la koy makit-an then I'll stay with Western. Basin naa diay moabot some time soon. I keep the faith. God bless us more in the New Year...

Survived It

I survived my 1st Christmas in Cambodia. This week we were so busy --Monday 21/12 night pa lang daan, 11pm na mi uli from our Mktng Team mtng. Nadugay due to the printing of envelopes for our GK show solicitation. Wed 23/12 Practice for our presentation for the Christmas Party. Then Christmas Eve, 24/12 we had a party in school. After the party, my sister and I spent the night at our friends' new place in St 59. Puyat tawn mi. Christmas Day 25/12 I went to Mass at St Joseph's Church at 10am. Spent the rest of the day preparing our attire for the presentation. When evening came it was party time! But the party started late...8pm na nagdinner so natapos mga 10pm. But I think overall, the celebrations went well. I'm looking forward to my New Year's celebrations. God bless!!!

Super Freakonomics

Yuka gave me a copy of Super Freakonomics when she came to visit me two weeks ago. I like reading it but it made me realize that since I don't teach economics anymore, it doesn't have much of an incentive. Good luck, Doki!

Sentiments

The other night I talked to Ate Jing abt old sentiments back home. Seems these problems would haunt me forever. It's about the house in Cebu again and my restless phase where I wasted a lot of money in Sg.

She emailed all my siblings and asked them to air out all other sentiments too. Dapat man gud mi magmove on na. Kay dugay na gud to.

I think about Bantil in all these and I realized that cguro she's like that coz she's been out of a job since 2005. Pila gud to iya sweldo in Taiwan per month. Ipray n lng daw sya namo.

Basta, Ginoo nay mahibaw nato tanan. Merry Christmas!!