New Year 2011

I had quite a good year in 2010. I'm just looking forward to a fruitful 2011. Happy New Year to us all!!!

Men!

I heard it somewhere that if magkabuang na ka'g pili among guys, hapit na ka magminyo. Coz last Christmas night, nanawag daw si Charles. I left my fone as usual so we weren't able to talk. Then pagka-26 nitext sad si Sopheap, my former English student, asking if I have a husband. I said I'm looking for one. Hahah!

Then napa jud, kinsa gani to?? Basta I just keep the faith. Maayos din ang lahat ng ito. Manalig ka lang, Doki.

Tired

I'm tired of chasing after him. Coz true, I left him in PP in 2008 and just kept in touch with him when I was in Philippines. I invited him to Philippines but la mn syay klaro.

He was in Siem Reap when I came back to PP in 2009. I saw him 2x there --when he ran in the AWHM and in one of the games of the Globalteer football tournament. Then he came back to PP, he went back to teaching English at our school.

We had a falling out because of something silly. Because of this, I ignored him when he came back to our campus last June. He only lasted two weeks, he left. He is teaching again in Plaza since September. I told him goodbye when I left PP last October. But I couldn't help myself, I still email him!

Actually he told me that he's getting close to this Khmer girl from his other school. It's okay, I wished them all the best alrdy. He never really said he liked me.

Last night I told him that he'll always be a special part of my PP memory. Told him I'll see him when I see him in future. I just dunno when. Could be May next year, could be not...

Everything's gonna be okay. I keep the faith!

How??

I think of how I could survive the holidays here this time. I am missing Phnom Penh so much!! I miss the kids, I miss my Phnom Penh group and I just miss everything there!

Just now my colleague Jacy asked me if given the chance, I'd go back to Phnom Penh. I said of course, you don't know what you're telling me...

But PP didn't give me a good job. I wasn't really needed there, I just happen to be one of those teachers they needed who came along. I guess given time, I could put my feelings into perspective. Just be patient, Doki!!

Give Up

It's true. I do give up so easily on men. Like with someone in SG or another one in PP. He wanted to introduce me to his girlfriend who was visiting mn gud. On Holy Week. And I saw the one in PP with a Khmer girl. Met them at the back of Lucky Supermarket before I went home the 1st time. Hahay gudluck!

"A faint heart never won a fair lady" is as much applicable to girls daw these days per Nev. I just love his words of wisdom, thank u! :)

It's Gonna Be Okay

Things are gonna be okay. I know that. If he's dating a new girl, it means we were not meant to be right from the start. He's not a bad person, he was just not the right person for me.

God bless us all!!

Run

This time of the year there's a big event in Siem Reap --the Angkor Wat Half Marathon. I went there with Yuka last year, we waited for Nick to finish his 21K. Took him a little over 1hr 20mins.

I will miss it this year. But I'm gonna run tomorrow at the Red Cross marathon in the Terraces. 5K lng sa kay 1st time pa man and ang 3K is for kids man daw.

Good luck to me! Naglakaw2 na ko diri city for 1hr or so. Just now Dexter said magstretch daw first.

Okay, till tomorrow then. If I don't like running, I can always go play badminton! :)

New Nephew

My sister gave birth to a bouncing baby boy yday. My second and newest nephew. Wow, nana koy kadungan magbday nga kapamilya. Grabe!

Crush

Maybe he was just my crush. I met him in Phnom Penh in June 2008. I went to look at his apartment in TTP. I didn't get the apartment coz it was beyond what I could afford. I didn't have a job that time. I thought I'd never see him again. Then I saw him 2wks later in school. Wahh, PP is such a small city!! I must admit I ran away from him due to my bad experience in SG. Because of that we never really dated. We just kept in touch thru email/Facebook. Then when I said I'm planning to return to PP, he said he was planning to leave. He was alrdy in Siem Reap when I returned in Oct '09, he worked for an NGO. I saw him twice in Siem Reap --first during the AWHM and 2nd at their football tournament. I dragged my Japanese friend who was visiting to the AWHM and didto mn sa KH one of our alumni so I went to their tournament na rin. It was very promising; they're now on their 2nd season as we speak. He came back to PP in April '10. He invited me to lunch. Then I invited him to Singapore Kitchen. He canceled at the last minute. After a month, he came back to our campus. I ignored him till he left after about 2wks. I told him I was hurt with what he did, canceling on the SG Kitchen thing. He said, "Don't dwell on these things, life is too short". I said, "Okay, I'll move on then. Thanks, enjoy your life!" Actually I counted off all the times mn gd when he said no and that was the final straw. I went home in October coz my aunt got sick. Now I'm here in Cebu working.I had booked a ticket to PP in May. I told him that I definitely don't want to see him in Plaza anymore so if he cannot spare the time to meet up with me, never mind. I'll visit my old campus n lng pohon. In Siem Reap during the football tournament, he told me that I should go get married soon. I said no, I'm not getting married. Recently, I told him why I said that. He said, 'Do you want to get married? Not everyone does, right?' Maybe he doesn't want to marry me coz he's dating a Khmer girl man daw. Whatever! I wish them all the best. I know I'll meet someone new. I keep the faith!!

Vindication

Hehe, kabawos na ko. On Facebook he said that the girl cancelled on their dinner date. Nagluto pa naman daw sya. Kabawos na ko! He cancelled on me at the last hour din with the Singapore Kitchen thing last May.

Definitely time to move on. Matter of time. Good luck to us all!

Letting Go and Moving On

Today I have decided to forget him and move on. It just cannot work out; we're in 2 different cities leading 2 separate lives. I'd always have the memories. I keep the faith!!

Thoughts

I suddenly feel down. It's because I have a new schedule this time --I hope it's final, no more changes in the pipeline. Instead of 830-930 now I have 1130-1230. I'm not particularly happy with it but I do hope we'll have a good semester together.

I'm suddenly finding things so boring. I can only keep the faith. Good luck, Heide!! :)

CDU

I'm now with CDU. Got accepted last Wed, 3 Nov and was told to start right away. Wow, 2nd chance! I only pray for the best...