Should I stay or should I go?

I received my first ever pay in Cambodia yesterday. Kakwarta na tawn ko diri after a very long time. But I can't help but think if this is what I really wanna do. I feel that I'm only doing this coz I don't want to keep asking money from Ate Jing anymore. Uni-Lu acknowledged receipt of my application and they are just going to screen it daw. It's now all up to You, Lord; I just keep the faith.