CDO Maundy Thursday to Easter

I went to Cagayan de Oro from Holy Thursday to early Easter Sunday. Ganahan mn gud ko mobakasyon and di pa ko ganahan mouli. Maong adto n lng ko didto kay di kaju gasto. Mahal kaju moadtos SG man gud. Laju n pud ang PP kay way direct. Jia you Doki, taronga imo reflection time. Cge. I was able to attend Last Supper Mass at the Church of Our Lady of Fatima in Velez St. Diha ra gud kos duol sa aho gisak-an. Then on Good Friday, I went to the Divine Mercy Shrine in El Salvador. Sus, kadaghan n lng jud sa mga tawo. Ang sunod nakos linya ingon taga-Malaybalay pa kuno to sila. I have long wanted to go there. Natuman ra jud. In the afternoon, nakahabol pud kos prusisyon sa Velez St. Ang Santo Entiero ug Mater Dolorosa na to ahong naabtan. I met up with my good friend Mercie also on Saturday. And I was able to do some work for my requirements sa Dumaguete. Then they accompanied me to SM City Downtown. Nindut pud ila SM didto, hayahay pud. Naay daghan space for kiosks sa entrance. I'm sure in time, maoccupy ra to sila. I came back to Cebu on Sunday morning. La lng mi nagkita ni Bantil, ako maguwang who was visiting from Lipa City, Batangas where she works. But magkita ra mi ig Mayo pohon, kung madayon ang amo Ilocos trip. God bless us all!

SU 1st Sem, 2nd Sem 2017-2018

Unknowingly nahuman ra ang ako 1st sem of my Phd studies at SU. Balik-balikan ra naho kada Sabado ug asahay pud naay Friday nights. Jia you Doki. 4 ako subjects this sem. Sila Dr Indab, Dr Rivera, Dr Felix ug Dr Cleope ako teachers. As of this time, I alrdy have grade ka Dr Cleope. 3.6/4.0 kuno kos Asian Civilizations. Urbanization and Rural Development mn to ako topic. Cge po.

Vinati

She's a very good friend of mine. I met her in ISS, as well as her parents. She was a diploma student I think. Over the years, we don't always communicate. But these days, she is indeed my adviser in my lovelife. Apparently, she is as old as my eldest sister. She is married and has adopted a daughter. Thanks for your great insights, Vinati. Always appreciated!

Say

I told him that I want stability at this point in my life. Syempre oi, I worked hard gud to get to the point where I am now. I don't want to make major adjustments na jud. I hope he is not surprised by that email. I just want to lay my cards down on the table. Feel mn gud nako that he is trying to make his distance, he's starting to do it. Cge lang Dong. If to say goodbye is for the best why not do it as early as now?? Keep the faith lng jud Doki. Kaluy-an ra ka ni Lord. Amen.

SCARY

POM has security issues diay. You cannot just walk around and you are not advised to take public transport. You have to ensure kuno that the windows of your car are locked while travelling and that the windows and doors of your home are locked before dark. Wahh, ing-ana sila kapobre? What did I ever get myself into Lord?? But then na'man lagi Pinoy auditing business that has survived there for the past 2o yrs now. Omega Business Consulting Inc. Filipinos working in POM are in auditing, hotel management as well as IT. I keep the faith. The latest industry employing thousands of Pinoys in PNG is the LNG project in the Highlands. 30,000 na gud kuno ang mga Pinoy didto ron. PAL lagi is restoring their flights from MNL-POM-MNL. Mahal raba ila plete. Mas barato ang Air Niugini. Jia you! I told him about this diay and he said media propaganda ra kuno na. But then, local mn gud xa mao makasulti sya'g ing ana. Kami kay foreigners mn mi didto, so lahi jud dapat amo perspective. Cge.

NUS - 2005 to 2006, 2008

There was a time in my life when I truly became unsettled; I made so many mistakes. And one of these mistakes was coming to the National University of Singapore in 2005 to 2006. They offered me a Research Scholarship actually for four years, renewable every year in order to do PhD Economics. Wahhh, panga'n lay nindut ato but kalisud n lng jud sa life! Kaniwang2 gud ko didto. Hurot ako oras ug tinubag sa problem sets nga di jud tawn ko kamao! When I came home in June 2006 my mom told me not to go there again. Kay niwang mn ko kaju. Maklaro na gud akong bukog sa abaga. As early as March 2006 niwang na ko ato. I was taking up Health Econ, Micro and Singapore Economy that sem. For my 1st semester I took up Macro Theory, Econ Growth in East Asia and International Banking and Finance. But despite of what happened, I learned a lot from that experience. I knew what Economics is at the international graduate level. So many students diay got into the same predicament as I did. Si Dai Jianzhong who was my classmate in ISS also downgraded to Masters. He did ECD n gani sa ISS. I even took over his carrel unta sa PhD Room. Wa n lng ko nidayon. Si Deepti had to withdraw pud from the scholarship program. I think she paid before she left. Preparation ra mn gud kuwang naho. Di na maapas if didto p ko magreview. And wala pud lagi koy study group nakit-an! And I realized that kuwang mn diay ang akong trigonometry from high school and integral calculus pag college. Pwede ra mn gud unta ug wa n lng ko ato nilarga to SG. I had an invitation gud for a refresher course in Nepal that time. And admission from Utrecht University as an external PhD student. Saun mn lagi nga nainsecure mn ko kay di lagi ko mathematical sa ako econ. Econ Dev ra mn gud ako gihandle ato, sa PolSci students pa jud. Mao I felt left out, nga di n ko part sa USC Econ. I had a schedule pud of teaching Health Econ sa Nursing for TTH nga mobreak ra ko kung maglunch. Kay 730-900, 900-1030 and 1030-1200 mn to. Then 130-300 and 300-430. Then ang MWF na ato maoy luag2. So when my NUS Research Scholarship came, I grabbed it like a hot potato. Besides, I asked if I could defer it to January 2006. Nicky said man that wala nay scholarship sa January 2006 mao nilarga n lng jud ko ato. When I got my NUS scholarship on the mail diay, that was the time of the late Sir Eche's death. Rest in peace Sir! But despite all of these things, si Sheryl Navarez who I met there as a Masters student told me that 'Singapore may be a mistake to you but it was a blessing to me coz I met someone like you'. Thanks a lot, She. Nagkita n mn mi diri Cebu last December 2019 coz they came here for a vacation man. And from Cebu they went to Bohol. Ako n lng ilang giari kay wa mn lagi koy bisita2 nilas SG. I paid up my outstanding balance with NUS man jud last January 2020 during the start of the covid pandemic. I requsted for TOR too so na'na koy transcript of that particular experience. I even wanted to visit Singapore in June last year but my ticket got cancelled of course due to the pandemic. Hasta akong Cebu to Bangkok nga ticket pud nacancel and tuas travel fund good for 3 years daw. Malargahan ra to phn kay need n mn jud ko magparenew ug passport ani. I left USC in November 2007. I took a leave without pay for one semester. I came back to NUS in January 2008 then dropped out and went to Cambodia in February 2008. I didn't want to return to USC anymore. I came home from Cambodia in October 2010 and started in CDU in November 2010. The next day niopen pud ang S&R nga among silingan. Surprise jud ni Lord ang CDU kay niari gud ko ug Cebu ato para lang makigkita ni Ms Ching nga kauban ug work in Ate Ica and mother of my former student there. But nag-anticipate ra pud ko nga interviewhon ato. I remember that I changed clothes n lng gud at the toilet in Chinabank Magallanes kay for interview mn kos CDU lagi. And gipasugod ko dayon. So pagkagabii n gud ko lagi after dinner with Ms Ching ato nauli sa Palm Heights. And si Bantil niari to'g Cebu kay ijang gihatod ahong mga sanina for work. I have been with CDU since! Jia you Doki. Everything will be alright. Zephaniah 3:13 or 39 ba to? Amen!

Jayeel

I greeted him merry Christmas last December but he gave me a cold response mao la na nako siya samok2a ron. I understand he is in Chinese University Hong Kong as of the moment for his postdoc. Didto pud cja gikan sa Japan. Cge na lng sya byahe2 ron kay international academic n mn. National Scientist pa. Cge po, more power to you always. Pahipi lng ko diris Dumaguete. Hahah

Effort

Si Mam Vilma said pasagdan lang daw naho cja nga mangita ug effort to show that he really likes me and cares for me. True. Coz the reason why he signed up to FB and to Messenger is thru me. Ako mn sya gihangyo nga adto mi talk. But sa email mn jud mi nagkaila. Cge mi exchange emails many times in the day. But usually around lunchtime nila. Gipadad-an pud ko nija ug postcard coz I asked him to do so. Basin feeling niya wa na sya'y freedom. So I will definitely give him space this week. Di na naho cja kara2hon kay busy pud cja kaju kuno. Cge lang Doki, mareveal ra lagi ni tanan in God's perfect time. Amen. As of this writing, 4/8/18, 78 na uroy ija friends sa FB. Nya mao nay I truly hate FB? Pagsure diha Dong oi. Cge.

N.S.

After not talking to me since November 2017 I caught him online yday. He said he just woke up. I asked him if he got married. Wala pa daw though he met someone daw 3 months ago. Hope it will work out daw. Cge po. I told him I met someone here also. Jia you to us mate! He seems to be teaching with Teacher Luke and Teacher Sarah so I asked him to send my regards. I caught him online again yday early morning. He said he was enjoying half of it. Ay oo, kay Sabado p mn diay yday. Sa ako kbusy bujag nklimot n nuon ko. Cge all the best always mate!

Be Brave Little One/Home

Be brave little one, Wear a smile and a blah blah : : Always keep a little prayer in your pocket And you'll surely see the light Soon there'll be joy and happiness And your little world will be bright Have faith little one Till your hopes and your wishes come true You must try to be brave little one Someone's waiting To love you When I think of home I think of a place Where there's love Overflowing Wish I was home Wish I was there with you Love overflowing You're my home and together We share this love for us To be happy and free You're my home and together We try to make this world A better place to be For you and me I keep the faith! :) Cge

Sincere?

He replied to my emails today 3/23/18. He said he was out of internet yday and today. But he also said nakawat daw iya fone. Suspicious na nuon ko. Coz mao mn gud ni gibuhat ni Coach in the past.. So what does that mean? Lahi na iya number when mokuha sya'g temporary phone pohon? Tan-awa lang Doki. Kay mahibaw ra mn ka kung sincere jud cja o di. I thought di n lng ni nako siya seryosoon but di pud ko ingon nga di lng pud magpakabana. Di lang mag-expect ug maaju while la pa mi magkita in person ug wala pa pud xa date to come here pohon. Cge Doki, gudnyt!

Edward

I kept looking for people nga naay kaila in Port Moresby. And fortunately si Edward naa daw. Hay salamat Lord. At least di n jud ko maguol kung unsa man gani. KTF lang jud Dok. Tag-iya sa Omega Business Consulting Inc. ang iya friend. I checked on the internet, sa Gordons ang ilang office. I told Andrew about it too. He said he's heard of Omega Consultants pud kuno. He even said I can find out for you. Pastilan jud oi. I pray always ;)

Vigil

He said his cousin (which he calls cousin brother) died daw last Monday afternoon. We were at the end of our videochat when he said that. Last night nagvigil daw sila mao gikapoy cguro to cja ron adlawa. Isa ka email ra mn jud ija gipadala. Jia you Doki, keep the faith lng jud always! ;)

Weekends & Other Excuses

Mao jud na ako sig huna2. Kung ngano di mi magstorya kung weekends. Mao magduda ko nga basin minyo siya ug tuas iya pamilya. Kaisa ra pud ko kitas ijang nawong diay sa video. Pero there was a time nga exchange mi ug pictures. And he gave me missed calls also on FB Messenger and IMO. Baw lagi oi. Cge lang Doki. Mahibaw-an raman japon na nako ang tinuod. Way aso makomkom. Ug pirmi pud ko pinangga ni Lord. Ana jud. Happy weekend!

CHED Allowance

Wow, nadawat na nako amo CHED allowance for this sem. Thanks po Lord! Last sem wa ko kadawat kay deferred mn ako scholarship. Makaeskwela n jud ko summer ani phon kay na'na mn ako allowance. Na'na koy magasto. I keep the faith in you Lord. Yes lng jud ko always.

Down

Well, he did tell me when I opened my email at SU library last weekend that their internet would be down soon. Basin karon ng panahona. Basta Lord, I will give him the benefit of the doubt till Wednesday cguro. Kay tarong mn lagi cja mostorya. I keep reviewing our email exchanges. Syaro na man pud ug di cja mangita ug paagi di ba nga magkastorya mi? Keep the faith lng jud Doki. Offer it all up to God. Amen.

Bad Feeling

OMG. I asked Chris if he knows this guy. Dili daw. Hay Heide, klaroha na imo life. Hinay2 anang mga foreigners ug taronga jud ug check. I keep the faith.

RP-PNG Connection

Ahh, so PNG was a former Australian colony diay. Mao diay hilig pud sila'g duwa ug rugby.. I searched for the RP-PNG connection. As early as the 1800s naa na diay mga Pinoy sa PNG who were missionaries. They have relatives lagi kuno pud nga mga Pinoy. Baw Doki oi. Gusto jud ka moadto didto? Well, siya may niabot Lord so I think hinatag siya Nimo. I keep the faith.

Ate Ica

Last night si Ate Ica was in my dream. In it iya daw ko pakalibangon nga di mn daw ko kalibang. Ever since I made the mistake with Dodong's money, sija na ako friend. Jia you to us, Ate Ica. She supported me in Cambodia from February to June 2008 when wala pa ko katrabaho didto. Life is a cycle..

Convulsion

Last night, Dr Cleope made a remark in our class about women at certain ages. At first kuno, kalendaryo. Then thermometer. So that ig 42 na daw ang babaye, convulsion na daw na. Pastilan! La lng kahibaw si Sir nga mao na na ako edad ron. Cge lng gud Sir. Naa pa may Bingo. Hahah. Atty. Ferolini Matahum used to tell me in 2004 that naniguwang na ang lubi, Heids. Told this to Perte. Her reply was, kung naniguwang, e di koprason! Problema ba na. Hahha.

The Gospel of Yes and Living Whole Without a Better Half

I found these books at Book Sale SM on 21 February 2018. I liked them so I bought them. Shortly after this I met A.M. Basin jud bigay sya ni Lord. Jia you Doki.

Busy Life

Kabusy sa ako life bujag. Yesterday I spent a very long time at school. I got ready kay magpictorial kuno at 12nn. I went to USC Main pa after lunch in order to get the book from Alan. Then we were supposed to see Ms Madelo the statistician at 330pm but it had to be rescheduled to 630pm. So when I came back to the faculty room, locked na intawn. May gani kay naay yawe si Sir Jam. I was able to get my things and go home. I think wala ra cguro ko naanad nga I spend a lot of time at school these days. Coz part-time na mn lang gud ako pagtudlo kay full time student lagi. TTH mornings ra gud ako klases. Yday when I wore my blue uniform, huot na intawn. It's another traveling day to Dumaguete. I finished my PPT na for Asian Civ class with Dr Cleope tonight. Jia you Doki!

Good Neighbor

Morag 4 yrs na ni sila ako neighbor to the left, sila Nang Myrna Quiaot from Capitol. 3 kabuok ija mga anak baje sa Finland ron. Tua kuno pud ang isa ka laki. Ang ija mga apo nga aho gitutoran before nga sila Tricia ug Jeramae tua n pud didto. Pirmi jud ko nija tagaan ug pagkaon. Asahay kung magbinignit na cja, free ra ko. Heheh. Jia you Doki, cherish your neighbors!

Afraid For Love to Fade by Jose Mari Chan

My head's in a jam Can't take you off my mind From the time we met I've been beset By thoughts of you And the more that I ignore This feeling The more I find myself believing That I just have to see you again Chorus: I can't let you pass me by I just can't let you go Though I know that I am much too shy To let you know Afraid that I might say the wrong words And displease you Afraid for love to fade Before it can come true :)

Kahlil Gibran The Prophet

I found a copy of this book yday at National Bookstore Parkmall. Ako gipalit kay ganahan mn jud ko ani nga book. Especially ang iyang thoughts on love. Jia you Doki, keep the love in your heart! ;)

Gwapo

I nagged him to send me pics and so this evening when I opened my email, I saw the pics he sent. Gwapo jud cja, morag artista. And he must truly care for me coz in the beginning he sent me a pic that didn't even show his entire face. Ako pa giyawyawan! Heheh. He said it must have been love kuno that made me want to see his face as a person. Xempre oi, I wanted to see his face. Di ko gusto mag-assume or mag-imagine.. What did I do to deserve somebody like that Lord??? Well, I still pray that padayon lng japon among communication. I keep the faith! Stay inspired Doki ;)

APEC 2018 PNG

He only replied to my emails over the weekend. He also told me what transpired of their weekend outing to Fisherman's Island. They played rugby daw with his friends and they had BBQ. I think he is busy with the insurance company that has gone bankrupt and also with the APEC meeting in Nov pohon that they are hosting. Ahh mao diay. And if I have to consider the nature of his work, I think I should be thankful that he keeps in touch. Puros numero gud na ila gipang-atubang. Sakto ra cguro pud so that slowly but surely jud mi di ba. Getting to know each other lang gud. He says he wants to come here jud in future. I told him I am from Bohol and would be willing to show him around my home province. Port Moresby is in the southern part diay of the country. Then kadtong Mt Hagen is in the middle. Actually bukid n to dapita and near the border. Arawa is on Bougainville Island in the west of the country; separate siya. Unsa gani rason ngano nadivide ang Papua New Guinea? I think it had something to do with the Dutch.. PNG has a population of about 8 million kuno and about 2 million live in cities. Today 3/5/18 I sent him pictures of family and colleagues. Kinsa daw tong mga bata. Told him anak ni Nang Anel. Then he said he likes my smile daw beside baby Patrick Zuriel. Heheh. Told him basig di na ko kaanak at my age. Let's wait for his reply. Jia you Doki. Keep the faith lng jud kanunay. Coz Ginoo ra jud nakahibaw sa tanan. Amen!

March 2-4, 2018 Weekend

I had a very busy weekend. Friday afternoon we organized a talk in CDU by Prof Michel Chossudovsky of Canada. Dr Weena Gera was kind enough to give us the chance. Then in the evening I slept na lng at GV Hotel coz wala mn diay byahe ang G&P to Dumaguete, direct Dapitan mn daw. Nabiyaan n pud kos Cokaliong kay la mn nako gicheck. Hahay. But I never regretted that decision coz I saw a very good view of Jones Avenue from my room at 908 in GV Hotel Sanciangko. I arrived a bit late for our class in Political Dynamics with Dr Indab. But thankfully I was able to deliver my book report. Nagtiwas ra mis book reports tanan so wala na mi klase ni Mam sa sunod. Thanks Mam! Then in the afternoon wala ngklase si Dr Rivera. Wahhh n lng jud para nila Mam Wilma ug Sir Renante coz niskala pa sila'g Siquijor just to get to Dumaguete. As it is, suroy2 n lng mis Rizal Blvd and had dinner at Hukad in Robinson's Calindagan. Mam Vilma and I spent the night at Ok Pension House. Dili kaayo nindut amo room but sagdi n lng. I arrived back here in Cebu City at 4pm this afternoon. Nisimba pa mn mi ni Mam Vilma sa cathedral before mi niuli. High mass to kay ang bishop mn ang nagmisa. If I'm not mistaken, si Bishop Julito Cortes to nga taga-Mandaue. Jia you Doki! Magfinalize pa kos report ka Dr Cleope this Friday phn and maghimo pud kos PPT for Dr Gera's class in UP Cebu ig March 12 phn. Wow, super busy ang life! ;)

APEC Meetings 2018

They are hosting an APEC meeting kuno in Port Moresby this coming Nov 2018 mao di pa sya kalakaw. Saun! I saw a report also in Al Jazeera of the work they're doing to construct the venue and all. He says take care coz I care na. Charot! Jia you Doki. Pray for the best lng jud kanunay!

Holy Week 2006, Church of the Holy Cross, Clementi, SG

Out of the blue, kadumdum lng kos amo song sa above church on Holy Week 2006. Apil2 mn kunohay mi choir ni C.B. "This is my love for you.." "This is my body (blood) broken for you..." Obedience to the Father ra laba jud ang giemphasize ni Father Richards Ambrose that time. Incidentally this time I have a book lagi entitled "The Gospel of Yes". Mosanong ra mn jud ta dapat sa gusto ni Lord. And we will surely get our heart's desires. Amen. Happy weekend everyone. I am inspired bujag! :)

Got to Believe in Magic

Sya na mismo nag-ingon nga it's a journey now so we must not stop the communication kuno till our relationship is stronger coz la daw mi kahibaw where it would lead. Lalalala... I had been with 4 other guys in the past. They didn't end up in marriage. This time could be it! Pity those who wait Trusted love to fate Finding out too late That they've lost it Never letting go They will never know The ways of love Chorus: Got to believe in magic Tell me how two people Find each other In a world that's full of Strangers Got to believe in magic Something stronger than The moon above Coz it's magic when two people fall In love ;)

Simple Truths on Love

I have a printout of an article with the same title as above. Mga 1990s pa to in my possession. One of the quotes I remember from there is that you don't choose love, love chooses you. Wow! It must be really true as I find myself falling in love these days. Nakilig ko and nakilig pud si Pinky. Hahah ;) Madam Shirley also once said that love is not an obligation but an outpouring. Baw Lord oi. Feel jud nako nga mao na ni. I will keep praying and hoping for the best. All faith unto You! ;)